This is the second part of my as yet unpublished book on experiencing Biblical Wholeness, you can read the first part here
As a Psychology teacher, teaching the psychology of stress was an important part of the curriculum. I taught my students about the stress response, the causes of stress and how to manage it; I even joked that teachers have one of the shortest post-retirement death rates but I never stopped to examine my own experiences of stress until YAH gave me a wakeup call.
I can’t remember when it first started but gradually I began to notice that my general health was declining. I seemed to be constantly falling ill;from colds and flu that made me take days off from work to being tired, agitated, angry and forgetting things, I began to notice that I was not ‘myself’ at all. I cannot forget one incident where I even had to be carried away by ambulance men in the middle of the teaching day because I had somehow managed to sprain my back. I was in the middle of class and I turned to write a note on the board and as I stretched upwards I froze in excruciating pain.
I could hardly move.
I turned myself just enough to look at my students quietly getting on with their work and said in a very calm voice:
“I’ve just hurt my back can someone go and get a first-aider!”
And guess what their reply was?
“Miss is this a psychology test?”
At that point my calm slipped a little, I guess it was the fear that I wouldn’t be taken seriously, so through slightly gritted teeth I said:
“no, this is not a test I really am in pain, can someone go and get a first aider PLEEEEASE!” and off they went.
That was me through and through, I was queen of calm back then and I thought it was a good thing but now I realise that it was faulty coping strategy which actually cost me my health! This was yet another example of continuously pushing my body and striving for perfection which negatively impacted on my well-being! After a while, I began to experience muscle fasciculations and pain across my body, I didn’t realise it then but my body was talking to me telling me to stop and rest; unfortunately I didn’t listen. Continue reading Soaring like the Eagle