When chronic illness causes you to turn from God

There are certain things which act as a catalyst to turning away from God and towards something else and one BIG catalyst is chronic illness!  I recall an incident during a pain management workshop.  At the first meeting everyone introduced themselves saying why they were there and what they wanted to gain from the sessions, after introducing herself one lady said that she would do anything to get better even voodoo!  Nobody thought anything of it, some even laughed but I realised that the fact that she had said it out in the open meant that she  considered it as a viable option.  The truth is that this lady is not alone, many people who suffer with a chronic illness are literally willing to do almost anything to ease their pain and discomfort.  I know this because I have been here. Continue reading When chronic illness causes you to turn from God


Do not be conformed to the things of this world … putting it to the test

And be not conformed to this world: but be you transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

Romans 12:2

We all struggle with changing our behaviour, our thoughts and our beliefs so that they match up with the Word of God, it’s our human nature.  Human beings tend to behave and think in ways which they feel has the most benefit for them, our behaviours and thoughts are easily modified and swayed by others particularly if it is the reigning norm.  God calls us sheep and indeed we are, we have a tendency to follow others maybe because we think that they know better/more than us or maybe because we don’t want to be seen as being odd.  Human beings like to fit in, we like to belong and feel a part of something bigger than us, it makes us feel more comfortable and secure.  But whether we change our thoughts, beliefs or behaviours because we think that someone else knows better than us or because we want to fit in, we are still being influenced by outside forces, psychologists call this behaviour conformity. Continue reading Do not be conformed to the things of this world … putting it to the test

Free Christian well-being encouragement ebook

 Dearest Brother/Sister in Messiah,

I’m excited today to tell you that the new On the Road to Healing ebook is now available, it’s taken me a lot longer than I planned but it just goes to show that God is truly the Master planner not I, but… it is now finally completed and ready for download.

What is it all about?

Well, I know from personal experience that when you are dealing with chronic health problems or spiritual/psychological well-being concerns you can feel like you have no life and many times it’s so easy to give in to the fear that seems to be lurking in the shadows. There is only one thing that conquers fear and that is faith. But how do we acquire the faith to hold on, hope and believe in the midst of trials and troubles? And is faith really the key for us to unlock the blessings of life that God has promised for us?

This 110 page ebook is an amalgamation of the first and second editions of On the Road to Healing . The first edition is full of encouragement for those who have questions on the journey whilst the second focuses on the question of faith on our healing journey. Join everyday Believers just like you, who have contributed to this booklet by sharing their footsteps, their highs and lows, their triumphs, revelations and testimonies. You are bound to come out more encouraged, invigorated and equipped in your own walk by meeting with us on our road to healing.

Download the ebook by clicking on the image of the front cover below.

On the Road to Healing Free ebook

Debate: the question of tithing

There are a few things which separate Christians: tithing, the rapture, speaking in tongues and the sabbath from what I have seen so far… although I’m not sure whether any of these differences lead to falling away they do lead to walls being built up within the body, I think we call them ‘denominations’.  As the time towards the end draws near God is touching my heart to speak on these sensitive issues, for my own benefit so that I can learn and solidify my understanding but also to help enlighten and challenge others in their thinking.  It is of no benefit to accept something just because it’s what we have been taught, we need to learn to divide the Word of God rightly for ourselves.

So I will get the ball rolling here by bringing up the issue of the tithe.

Is it biblical for Christians to tithe?

What is the purpose of the tithe?

Continue reading Debate: the question of tithing

Canada’s read an ebook week

Firstly, I want to send my apologies for not reading or commenting much this week, it’s been a tough couple of weeks for me and I know for many others too but the above headline (see title) caught my eye so I had to share.

Short and sweet!  Canada had their read an ebook week this week, and I thought this was such a great idea especially because many of my online friends and connections who are our spiritual brothers and sisters have written ebooks.  I know one Canadian author Ronnie Dauber was giving away one of her books for free, but even though the offer has ended you can still pick it up at a reduced price.  You do not need a kindle to read as many of these are in pdf or other text versions or you can download kindle’s software for your phone, ipad or pc.  (All links are UK links – sorry!!!)

Even if you are not Canadian, I think Christian ebooks are another great way to receive spiritual encouragement and counselling.  I’m currently reading a book that I found free on Amazon Kindle, it’s called Beginning at the End* it’s main focus is on the book of Job and I’m planning (by God’s grace) to use it for the basis of a video series.

Another great thing is that you can find many ebooks on special offer or even for free at Amazon, Smashwords (Christian free non-fiction and Christian free fiction) and free-ebooks amongst other sites I’m sure.  So, if you are in need of a pick me, try seeing what you can pick up over on the ebook aisle.

Blessings and shalom to you.


Passover Cleanse update and step 4

I can’t believe I’m coming into the fourth week of the cleanse, I should be happy but there are a couple of things that weigh me down at the moment.  I have been in a lot of pain recently, yesterday I went to sleep in pain and today I woke up in pain, I’m at that point of scratching my head and wanting to pull my hair in frustration, why am I still feeling so bad?  The issue is that this time last year I was in a much better state (physically) than I am now, and I know there are probably a number of reasons why this could be the case.  Physically, I’ve not been as strict with myself on this cleanse as I ought to have been, the thought of doing this cleanse scared me so much that I changed a few things to make it more easy going this time around, I need to do this properly from now on.  Secondly, I feel that the more understanding and knowledge God gives you, the more He challenges you to apply His truth to your life, maybe this is another part of His oh so intensive refining process because I am that bit more stronger in Him.  I don’t know and that’s the killer. Continue reading Passover Cleanse update and step 4

On nurturing and growing the fruit of Love

I’m sitting here typing knowing that I need to say something but not quite sure what it will be, but I know that it will be on love.  Why love?  Because God has been dealing with me in this area, and I’m both saddened and perplexed by what He has unveiled in me.  I’ve always been known for having a kind heart but deep down inside I guess I was always kind, loving and giving on my own terms, when it suited me best.  I could go out of my way to help someone but not if it encroached past my well-fortified four walls, physically and spiritually. 

Yesterday was a case in point, I had designated it as my rest day because I was worn out from having to look after my husband who has been ill for around a month, cooking, cleaning, ministry work and dealing with my own health and well-being problems.  In the midst of all of this, the thing that had suffered the most was my quality time with my Father (Abba) so I made a silent vow the night before to spend the day with Him, just He and I.  I had so many plans about how I would spend this ‘us’ time, I would read, write, pray, sing, dance and anything else I was moved to do… it didn’t end up that way.  A major issue for hubby and I is that we live in shared accommodation, so we have one room for personal use, this doesn’t really matter when he’s at work but with him at home it does really matter.  So while I was trying to carve out some spiritual rest time, Eke was talking to me or reading out loud, fair enough I know that I didn’t tell him that it was my ‘rest’ day but I could feel myself becoming more and more agitated and frustrated as the day wore on.  So I went downstairs as everyone else was out and decided to sit in the front room then my husband told me that one of his young mentees was coming round grrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!  This would mean that I would have to forfeit all of my plans and put on my social face instead, now how do I dig myself out of these feelings of anger and frustration and wrap myself back in God’s cloak of love and warmth? Continue reading On nurturing and growing the fruit of Love

Broken Believers

It hurts me to know that there are so many broken people in the world, living in this world is hard I get it but don’t like it.  Lately, God has been reaching into the deepest and darkest core of me and bringing out secrets that I have been storing, as ever decaying food to nibble on yesterday and today.  I have really known despair.  But, I am heart-broken to find that so many of my brothers and sisters are living in pain, broken and rejected by those people who should be closest to helping them.  It’s not a crime to be hurting and broken, yet many a time other Christians make us feel like it is, hurting people are ignored because of fear or self-righteousness I don’t know and these people are left to go it alone.  Have you ever known someone who has committed suicide because there was absolutely no one to be their friend?  I am so glad that when I needed help and those in the ‘church’ didn’t want to help me that God sent His angels to show me unconditional love, I will never forget those people because God used them to reach out to me and pull me up from the creatures in the deep, dark waters.  Won’t you be the same for someone who is hurting today? Continue reading Broken Believers

7 Reasons why Believers should be Environmentally (Creation) Friendly

  1. God created the heavens and the earth and everything within it and saw that it was good. (Genesis 1)

earth from outer space“God saw everything that he had made, and indeed, it was very good.” (Genesis 1:31)

2. God owns the heavens, the earth and all it contains, God loves what He has created

Continue reading 7 Reasons why Believers should be Environmentally (Creation) Friendly

A Prayer of Spirit and of Faith – part 2 (Yeshua)

In the first part of this post I wrote about the importance of having a strong prayer life but with a particular emphasis on praying in spirit and in faith.  There are many forms of prayer which is evident within the Bible, from the Lord’s prayer to Hannah’s soul cry, but sometimes we really do need to pray as if we are fighting in a battle and that’s because we are!  As I mentioned previously I’m not too keen on casting and binding any which way, I feel that sometimes God wants us to go through a certain situation to strengthen us so it doesn’t matter how much we cast or bind as God’s will is much, much, much greater than our own.  However, I do believe that there is a way to pray effectively against the enemy whilst acknowledging God’s will and superiority in all things and a great framework for such a prayer is psalm 118.

Each morning I pray psalm 118 in addition to my normal prayers, I love the power behind the words but I also love the simplicity and elegance of the heart shown behind the words.  I think that this is a really powerful prayer that tells a story of a soldier on the battlefield surrounded by a multitude of enemies who remembers that he has a God who loves him and fights on his behalf.  The words of this psalm shows that David knows that God is on his side and that he can and will defeat his enemy because of this simple truth.  Next you see the battle weary soldier, walk up to the temple gates, through the gates is protection, safety, deliverance, rest, peace and so on… I have adapted the psalm for my own personal battle and it fills me with so much strength whenever I pray it.  I hope that it does the same for you  too.


Psalm 118

O give thanks unto YHVH; for He is good: because His mercy (love) endures forever. Let His people now say, that His mercy endures for ever.
Let His children now say, that His mercy endures forever.
Let them now that love and fear YHVH say, that His mercy endures for ever.

I called upon You YHVH in distress: You answered me, and set me in a large place.  You are on my side; I will not fear: what can the enemy do unto me?  You take my side along with those that help me: therefore shall I see my desire upon those that hate me.

It is better to trust in You O YAH than to put confidence in man. 
It is better to trust in You O than to put confidence in mighty things.

The enemy has compassed me about: but in Your name YHVH will I destroy them. They compassed me about; yea, they compassed me about: but in the name of YHVH I will destroy them.  They compassed me about like bees: but they are quenched as the fire of thorns: for in Your name O YAH I will destroy them.

You (the enemy) have thrust sore at me that I might fall: but YAH has helped me. YHVH is my strength and song, and is become Yeshuati (my salvation). The voice of rejoicing and Yeshua (salvation) is in the tabernacles of the righteous: the right hand of the YHVH does valiantly.  The right hand of the YHVH is exalted: the right hand of the YHVH does valiantly.

I shall not die or remain in sickness but live in health and wellness declaring the works of YHVH.

You have chastened me severely: but You have not given me over unto death or to illness. (He has not alloted this to me as my portion).

Open to me the gates of righteousness so that I will go into them, and praise You: This gate of the LORD, through which the righteous shall enter (Yeshua, Jesus is the gate (John 10:9) and this gate is now open to all who believe in and trust in Him bringing salvation to those who love and fear Him, so I will praise Him now!)

I will praise You: for You have heard me, and have become Yeshuati (my salvation – the One who Saves!).

The stone which the builders refused is become the head stone of the corner.  (The people of this world tell me that prayer and faith will not help me but I know that my healing is built on this stone, this Rock of Ages).  This is YHVH’s doing and it is marvellous in me eyes. This is the day which the LORD has made; I will rejoice and be glad in it.

Save now, I beseech thee, O YAH: O YAH, I beseech thee, send now prosperity (health, healing and wellness).

Blessed is He that comes in the name of YHVH: we have blessed you out of the house of YHVH.  God is YHVH who has shown us light (or) bind the sacrifice with cords, even unto the horns of the altar.

You are Eli (my God) and I will praise You: You are my God, I will exalt You.
O give thanks unto YHVH; for He is good: for His mercy endures forever.


Join me this week as I link up with Rhoda @ Living to please God.