This post is a bit unusual for me in that it takes the form of a prayer request and a post (I guess) all in one. Please read through and if you would join me please pray regarding this issue with me whenever you feel moved to this week.
Why is it that more often than not it is those who have the most beautiful gifting to minister to others that are held most securely in chains of bondage?
This thought has been on my mind since Sunday because I have a very dear friend who is in such a situation. My friend who I will call LN, was baptised nearly two years ago and prior to that she had been ministering through her local church choir; her gifting is such that anyone who hears her ministering is moved to tears. Now, as far as I am aware she no longer attends church and she no longer ministers but she is still singing but this time not for God. She has been here before and it worries me because I saw how much it changed her behaviour and her attitude towards herself the first time around and hear echoes of it rebounding once more. My friend has not had an easy life, she has many wounds which I can see are holding her bound. She needs love and is being held back by fear.
I saw my friend this weekend and heard her sing, she has such a beautiful voice, I am so proud whenever I hear her. I know that she also has a kind heart and excellent intentions underneath everything, and knowing this I was especially saddened because I know regardless of how beautiful the gifting and how excellent the intention it is not enough to enable us to stand in God’s eyes.
Why do we have to experience so much pain in this life? Why do we have to carry around so much baggage and damage inside of us? Why do we have to become lost before we can be found? Why can’t this life just bruise and hurt us less?
When I think about the human condition I feel so sad, we are all so desperate in our needs and frailties. We need to be loved and chase after love in all the wrong places. We need to feel esteemed and look for status in the world. We need to feel necessary in such an immense creation that we happily live a life bound in chains in order to fulfill this goal. We all do. Why? Why do we try to achieve all of this through our own might and in our own way when all it does is push us further away from the one who can still all our fears and heal all of our wounds?
What God wants from us, what we need for ourselves seems to go against human instinct and understanding. Our need for self-preservation, love and esteem drives us onwards when God is saying to us, “Stop!”
“Stop striving, stop trying, stop reaching and just let it go. Give it all over to Me, trust in Me to heal you, to comfort you, to esteem you, to love you; believe that I know best and follow Me.”
So simple yet so hard.
This is a painful love that comes with giving your heart over to God, the type of love that is bittersweet. Bitter in that it requires change and sacrifice that we may feel too stretched to give, overwhelmed because we may experience more pain than that which we knew whilst we were in the world but…
sweet too. Sweet because overshadowing all of the above is a love so real and pure that to taste it is to feel your heart-break and heal again in an instant. An acceptance so complete that you know that you have found your home. A fullness so heavy that it can only be the weight of God’s glory living and growing within you day-by-day. This is what I want for my friend, this is what I want for all of us.
Yes, the world may seem like an easier road to walk when we compare it to the sacrifices that God will ask of us to make. But this world has no meaning and definitely no love except through Him. I see more clearly my life when I look at my friend, that our fears and our desire to be loved so wholly, intensely and unconditionally is cruelly used by the deceiver to keep us bound in chains. Today, this week I want to pray against this in my friend’s life, in my life, in your life; join me and pray.
I have written a short prayer and attached a reflective song which follows but please feel free to add your own words, reflections and even any initials you want prayed for. Please also forward this post to others who may wish to join hands in this. I would also invite you to read a similar post by my good friend Amy called Love from a Higher Perspective, her post really did speak to me particularly in this situation.
Please have mercy on LN and all others joined in this prayer in one accord. Please show us that You are God and that before You there is no other. Lord God, let us see that You are the Way, the Truth and the Life and that without You all routes lead to death and destruction.
Lord, let us know that You are the Eternal Comforter and Lover of our soul. That there is no love greater or stronger than the love that You have for Your children. Lord, I pray that You will fill us up with hope, eternal hope in You which will bring about fruitfulness.
Lord, I pray that You will bear us up in the midst of the storms that we face, so that when all is said and done, we may live and stand to glorify You.
Lord, may it please You to answer this prayer and bring life where there is death.
In Yeshua’s Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.
Living for Your Glory by Tim Hughes
This week I am linking up with Soli Deo Gloria and Grace Cafe.